Hello everyone,

First thanks for the caring words from those who responded to my earlier post. It really did mean a lot to me.

To recap, I started on Prozac at 10mg/day 3 weeks ago tomorrow with instructions to double the dosage which I started doing (20mg) last Wednesday.

This week my wife has taken the baby to see her relatives in another state before she leaves on a long trip out of country. I had things I wanted to accomplish at home and thought it would be a good opportunity but after leaving them at the transit station yesterday I stopped by an auto repair place and found out my car needs at least $800 in repairs and most likely more because they weren't sure about another part's price. That started it again I guess. When I got home I didn't want to do anything so I couched and played a bit of xbox (well it was supposed to be just a little while) and it turned into basically the rest of the afternoon and evening. I didn't feel like getting up or even having dinner which I finally forced myself to make something then went to sleep late, only to have to get up at 4:15 to get ready for work which I'm not that happy with anyway. Now my wasting this time has me feeling like cr*p about myself and I just don't understand how to get motivated to do what I wanted to do.

Now I'm at work then afterwards take my car by and spend more money to get it fixed, then go home to an empty house, after dark. My happiness is not based on them being there at home (as it's hard for me to really remember what it was like to actually be happy). I feel like I should have been happy when the baby was born and I was glad he was there and healthy but primarily worrying about the fact that should have been happy but wasn't really. We didn't even get any help for almost 2 weeks when her sis finally came by from another state and even then she just really wanted to do the tourist thing and I had to run them both all over the place as she doesn't yet drive and we only have 1 vehicle.

Anyway, sorry about the tangent but I really wonder about how people get motivated when they dealing with depression. I feel so tired and sleepy all the time and even when I got to work at 6:30 I thought maybe I should just leave and go home and go to sleep.

Does anyone have any pearls of wisdom they could share? Sorry again about the long, disjointed post.