Not redundant at all Mike. Thank you. Yes, it is our fist baby, and probably the only one considering we're both 39 now. She's gone for this week, then back for 1 week, then they're both leaving for India for a month and a week. The weird thing it I thought I'd be happy to have the time to myself, no crying baby (he's 9 months old now) or any other myriad of things that take up my time and now with them gone 1 day I'm really missing them. I don't think about the crying as much as I do high laughter and trying to walk, babbling and smiles.

I'm going to try to take it easy. Maybe I need this time. Now though I'm not sure what I need. After years of being alone and several failed relationships and being glad to get out of them, now I find myself needing these two people in a way that rather scares me. I've always been a bit sensitive by nature but always told by 1 parent that I shouldn't be and that it was more of a female nature and not mine. Confusing as hell to say the least!