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Originally Posted by tryingtobeme
I can't help myself anymore. I've tried and tried, even given in to some of my biggest fears...where has it gotten me...no where. I am still hated, alone, gross disgusting piece of trash. Maybe I should just sit out with the garbage. That is what I am and that is what you do with trash is throw it out...
what's the use of even posting this..why bother with more...not like anyone really cares. I will always be alone...my life is not important
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I feel this way today, have been since I put it on here. I know no one wants to hear what I have to say. I'm just posting to get it out of me before I do something even more drastic.
I cut, just a few mintues ago, for the first time in over a month. I damage everything I ever touch or am around. No wonder why I don't have friends that actually give a **** about me.
I keep wanting to be with these men in my life. They don't know how I feel but I would love to be with any one of them. Even my T is one of them. He doesn't even want me though....this is useless....who really give a ****. LIke I said I should go out with the garabe and just put in a land fill to rot.