There's no other way to describe it. Trying to act like there's nothing wrong because everyone around me doesn't get it is tiring and making me more crazy than I already am. People just DO NOT GET IT. "Buck up." **** off. At least some of the people at the crisis center understand it. Or appeared to anyway. They were able to keep me safer from me. After my last visit there-only a few weeks ago- I thought I was able to take things one day at a time, deal with **** as it happens and deal with the old stuff (where all the issues are) when there's time to be a spaz. Day by day no longer exists. Am down to minute by minute and feel that battle being lost. I can't do this anymore.