Dazed, I felt this way a lot at the beginning of therapy. All I can say is that with time and with a very patient, kind T, it doesn't worry me any more because I KNOW that I can trust her not to be laughing at me (maybe she gets frustrated sometimes, I don't know, but I know she isn't laughing at me). She's proven her trustworthiness 1000 times by the kind, non-judgmental way she responds to and anticipates my needs. I'm really lucky. I don't know if all T's are like that. If you've given it time and you still don't feel good about yours, maybe try to find someone else? As for the being friends thing, I hear you that it is really frustrating that the relationship will someday end. On the other hand, if she was my friend then she couldn't be my T, and I like having her as my T, so that tradeoff is OK for me for now. Sorry you're feeling frustrated right now.

Here is the problem for me. I know my T is a caring professional, but I haven't met whoever she might be "venting" to (she's told me she talks to a consultant/supervisor about me but that she doesn't use my full name) and I have no way of knowing whether that is in fact someone that I would trust with information about me. Not all T's (or health providers in general) are caring professionals. I've known a couple in RL that I wouldn't want to share my private information with. I feel like I can trust my T enough to show discretion here, but I still don't love it.