I am not sure if I can pull myself out of this one.
My thoughts are to make my T, gf, and friends believe I have come out of the deep hole so they can back off me for a while and when no one is looking.......... *******
I cannot tell the truth from the lies anymore.
I have no desire to be strong either.
It is exhausting keeping up with my mind.
I think I am going to cancel my appt Thurs with the psych doc. I know she is going to ask a ton of questions I do not want to answer. And, I don't want to have someone new in my life to be accountable to.
I seriously think I have hit rock bottom.
I cannot believe the enormous amount of depression that fills my head.
I don't think anyone or thing can save me.