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My sanity score was 144. It said that there are 10 areas that I seriously think about getting help from professional.
I never seem to get better with talking therapy.
I do have an appointment this week but I picture myself dragging there.
I don't want to waste my money for parking.
I am thinking about all the excuses.
may be because I ended up spending $500 on parking tickets this month.
Yes, it's true.
I am so depressed, I don't want to do anything.
I've been in bed for months.
anytime I have a chance I go to bed and try to sleep.
I am telling myself that I am sleepy all the time so I don't have to feel or deal with anything. Of course I do have nightmares.
as I am writing this... yes, I do need help but I don't want to get help
because I feel so lazy, I just want to stay in bed and sleep.
I do talk to people but a lot of them are going through so much right now
I can't really talk to them about me.
oh well, actually I can just talk to anyone but I am not doing it
because whenever I have problems, I tend to keep them inside me
and try to ignore them and think that it will just go away eventually.
It worked when I was young but not anymore.
at least I am writing about it...
I don't know...
I know I need help but I don't want to.
am I being stubborn about this? or what?!!!
May be I am still thinking I can handle all the pains
well I think I am so used being in pain all the time. I feel like I'll never get better.
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