((((Berries)))) Since it seems you really aren't comfortable with not working, I think that you are right on the money with aiming for the volunteer work, at least first. I really applaud you for going for the OCD clinic. Talk about facing your fears! That's a very courageous thing for you to do, and I admire you for it!!! However it turns out, your actions show you to be brave and determined. It would be terrible to iron us all out to the point of being clones, but sometimes there are things that make life a lot harder than it should be. Bless you Berries! How could anyone think you were lazy? Go get 'em!