Thank you for the responses and support. He is giving my space and trying to be supportive. I wanted to bawl when i read that article. Its just terrible! And why in the world would that mother leave her baby with a man that beat her???
The ironic thing is we have been married for a year. We have known each other for at least 5 years. In all that time we have been happy. Yes, we have had fights. Just normal fights...some harmless bickering...but never like this. We always calm down apologize to each other and discuss the problem..we do...but for some reason it just went haywire.

AAAAA- i completely understand you. You do have a point. I did participate and "egg him on" by calling him a name. I just got so angry with him being so angry at me and saying things that werent even true and slipped out. I wish i wouldnt have said it. I wish i could take it back. It wasnt fair to him and i know i need to take part in the responsiblity. I did apologize for it but i know it might not be enough. Thats why i do feel guilty though...because there are women who get beaten all the time just for breathing wrong, I actually did something wrong and just got what was coming to me...probably alittle harsher than i imagined but nonetheless he was already tired and stressed and i knew that. I really should take some responsiblity.

I guess i almost feel like, those other women who get beaten for just breathing wrong they deserve the support and empathy, I dont deserve it...my husband doesnt beat me every day...he just choked me ...once...didnt even leave bruises. This is one issue im struggling with. Yea i almost passed out..but i didnt. He didnt actually hit me or slap me or kick me. Just cause he choked me once...i feel like im playing up the spousal abuse...im feeling really guilty and really ashamed...Its just how i feel, i know everyone is being so supportive of me and so understanding. But why do I still feel like the bad guy???????