Berries

You aren't a lazy coward for not wanting to work. NO.

For similar reasons, I am also unable to work. My experience has been a lot like Pom's. I have tried many times to be what I considered an "upstanding citizen" and work full-time. Couldn't handle it. Went down to part-time. Couldn't handle that either. I am one thing ~ a woman. When working, my personal world and physical health fall apart every time. When not working, after a year or so, I finally get a hold of my physical health. After that, my emotional health s-l-o-w-l-y becomes more "liveable". It has taken me years to recognize this pattern I have. It taken more years to accept these facts.

So, I get SSI assistance. That has a huge financial impact on my world. I cannot allow government assistance to bring me down emotionally. It's all that I have, and for that, I am thankful. Hopefully, I will be able to handle working part-time someday. Or, maybe volunteering will fill that void in my self-esteem. Right now, I am wise enough to recognize that I can't handle either work. But, I am okay. I'm a waaaaaay better mom, and I'm a better human being. That's what is important to me.


Shez