I have been giving this some thought and letting myself "feel" the fear and the dread that my 8 year old self felt. I've started to remember more about the days that followed, but I think that maybe that is a good thing. I don't think I have really done that to this extent before. It was always "don't talk about it", "it upsets everyone when you ask questions"...

Right now I feel more detached. Like I can remember and it feels like watching a movie. Such a strange feeling...but...I can sleep without the light on again so I'm glad for that.

Thank you all so much for your insight and wisdom!! I sincerely hope that my neighbor never sets his chimney on fire again!!! LOL Although maybe it was a blessing in that I have been in a place where my mind can process some of the memories that have been stuffed down so long.

Much love to you all!!