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Oct 26, 2009, 05:12 PM
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Member Since: Aug 2009
Location: Limestone, Maine
Posts: 29
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cypher:
Absolutely. I'm very, very aware of the tolerance game (or the possibility of playing that game, especially with out intention). Which is why I've always been quite apprehensive about taking any medication of the sort. The problem is that I feel that the ADHD affects so many aspects of my life that I needed to do something, especially with the addition of college (which, in retrospect might not have been the best idea, but in a way, it's kind of necessary and the fact that I want to try to better myself to be able to provide my daughter with a better situation than what I had growing up). I have the inattentive type with impulsiveness (in regards to shopping [money], excessively disclosing private/personal information to pretty much complete strangers, as well as other things). I've never had a problem with hyperactivity. But yes, it does seem like one of those miracle type of things. It's like, 'So, this is how people function!  '. It helps me stay on track tremendously and it doesn't make me go into hyper speed. I'd say it's more like a push of functionality.
Another thing that was something that really got in the way was the fact of the thought process. I have one of those circular motion minds, where it also tends to branch into every single direction possible. The biggest problem I've ever had with it is when it comes to my relationship with my husband. Needless to say, there are quite a few communication issue. I just can't seem to find the way to verbalize what's in my mind to something comprehensible. It has caused so many issues and rifts in our relationship. Lucky enough for me, he loves me enough and our relationship is resilient enough where it usually comes out okay in the end (spar for the one time where we were seriously talking about divorce over on single misunderstood statement). However, on Ritalin, I don't have that problem nearly as much. I don't have a problem verbalizing things to him, and I'll even vent my frustrations between us to him (which was once unheard of with me because of the fact that I always held things in, no matter what).
I completely understand what you mean though, and quite honestly, I'm afraid of that. It's one of those things where you have to compare the risks to the benefits. I'm depending on my PDoc to monitor my dose and to just tell her what I'm experiencing and then leaving it up to her, unless in the case of where I don't agree. Then I'd find out more about why she would think that dose (or whatever else she's decided to do), and then make a decision.
Oh, I know. There are many, many people against the use of Ritalin. I believe a lot of that's merely about context. I do believe that many of them haven't experienced (first hand or personal) ADHD, and that they're just going on different portrayals of bad. Of course everyone isn't going to respond well to Ritalin, but they fail to see that for some people, it works quite well for them (like myself).
Thank you for your reply! 
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