Hey Pinksoil,
so good to see you here. I have been reading Kay Redfield Jamison's book about manic depression, "An Unquiet Mind" (which I think you read). One thing in the prologue that stood out was the following:
"The Chinese believe that before you can conquer a beast you must first make it beautiful." (5)
This quote really resonated with me and so I pass it on to you. I told T last week that I though that I believe I have to find a way to make friends with my intrusive thoughts rather than try to get rid of them.
Take gentle care.