Hi

Thanks for your reply

I know exactly what's causing my depression worse. I am under a lot of stress. emotionally and physically as well.

I am seeing 2 different physio therapist 3 times a week. I finally decided to see my P 2 weeks ago and I have another appointment this week.

I am ok with physio because I do have to get rid of my physical pain. but still it frustrates me a lot that I could be doing something else... such as going to the gym by myself and just work out I used to.

I am not eating much either. I used to eat so much under stress but now it's changed.
I like this way more especially I can't go to the gym at the moment.
I am not quite concerned about eating disorder. I don't think it's that serious.

I am avoiding going to work. of course it's affecting the business.
not quite concerned about financial issues either cuz it's ok for now I guess.

I do worry about my family and my friends. 2 are going through divorce and they call me a lot for help. I can't tell them not to call me becuase I just can't do that although it drains me a lot and definately give me more stress.

I don't have any motivation, no energy, not eating, sleeping or in bed all the time.
I stay in bed way too much I get a back aches.

No emotions, I like that.
nothing seems to make me feel happy or motivates me any longer.

I completely stopped doing everything...

and I don't want to talk about my problems any longer except on the internet.
I've just started to have some energy to do this. I haven't written for a while.

I am scared of doing a lot of things too.

I feel like I've done all the best I could with my life. and I just don't want to deal with anything anymore... pretty hopeless huh

When you go and talk to your P. you talk about what you are feeling, what you are going through. and I just get focused on negative things which makes me feel more depressed.

I don't even want to talk about any problems any longer.
I am sooooo tired of everything...
This is the most I can do for now.