I know AAAAA you didnt mean it like that. Thats just how i feel because i did call him a name just in reference with what you had mentioned. He is upsetting me alittle bit though, constantly asking me to talk to him about this and saying he feels lonely in dealing with this alone. One breath he says what ever you want to do or how to cope i completely understand. Unfortunately MY coping skills are yet to be desired. I really kinda have none. I go stone wall. I feel nothing and i see nothing and act like there is nothing. Unfortunately that is not healthy, but honestly i dont know how to approach the situation. The one man i normally run to for support and protection is not who i can go to. He called a domestic abuse hotline to ask her what to do and she gave him a number to a support group to go to. The support group, according to the guy leading it, goes on once week, ironically the day of the week that i go to school. Then my husband asked about setting up another day one on one and its 30 dollars a session, which we cant afford. So he told me he is going to talk to one of his guy friends..who happens to be my friends as well and get some guidance from them. Right now...im scared and im shut down. He wants support and his best friend back. Its only been two days since the man choked me....i dont know! I want to force myself to be the same old me with him in our relationship but i think a two day bounce back is asking for alittle much. Im angry at myself for not being more supportive, im angry that he would put me in all these situations, im angry that im just not getting a break! I need a vacation away from everything. Just some personal fix myself me time.