if tears make you strong...I've become Hercules...Athena sounds better and I like the way she dresses...I'd look like hell in a loincloth.

It's not doing me any good trying to figure out why I'm having a Niagara Falls time...tears need to be shed.
Strange to feel that mask slide off at the smallest thing...I'm almost embarrassed by it.

and I feel broken in some ways. the whole of me would handle all these things; it might take awhile but I would be on firm ground and charge in.
now I feel like I'm rushing here and there trying to find the pieces to this new puzzle and I either cannot find them or there are so many of them that I start the damn crying again.
...and I'm so very tired of it.

This past year has been difficult and I think I've done a good job of handling everything that has happened up until now
So what do I do this time? Gee, I fall apart ...
Seriously, I blinked and when I opened my eyes the tears started and they are imitating the Energizer bunny...that little smart butt is going to be my dinner some day.

this is tough, it really is

I do feel safe posting here
it's in my heart to go to other forums and give support and hugs..but when I do, I feel useless so I will stick with hugs 'cause the words aren't there.

wonder if the Kleenex people started a third shift to handle the increase in sales from all the buying for my crying?

Catherine