Hey Puzzle.
I know what you're dealing with. For about 7 months I dealt with depression, and in October, almost died because of it. I still have to deal with some of the depression, but one of the things I'm learning is to not let it affect me. I know, easier said then done.
*hugs puzzle* You have people here who know your struggle.
I know what it's like to feel unwanted, but the truth is you are not unloved, you aren't unwanted. I know how hard that is to believe sometimes (it's taken me forever to believe that myself)...
one thing you may want to try to do is keep telling yourself you ARE wanted, you ARE loved. it's one thing to know it in your head, but you must believe it with your heart, otherwise changes won't happen. I'm dealing with the same thing.