Thanks for reading my post and being friendly/helpful. It is always good to see that I'm not alone.

I never really experienced feelings like THIS (the last month or so) before in my life. I'm 21 years old...perhaps it is a combination of things just building up to a climax. Stress from school, the death of my relatives the last few years..the trigger being the recent death of my uncle. I guess the anxieties started when I fully realized the finality of death and the shortness of life. The fact that time never stops..I suddenly saw myself as an old man..looking back at my life. Or perhaps not old, maybe just 40 years old with a wife and kids. I started really, truly examining the reason for life..the real reason of existence in general and what existence meant. I guess just a period of deep introspection...an intense period. Thoughts like these can drive even the strongest person to anxiety. These thoughts like I said were strong for a week..left for about a week..came back but not quite as strong for another week..and left for about a week..then again came back not quite as strong and left.

The anxieties themselves, although there..haven't been overbearing like they were in the beginning. Now I will more so feel somewhat depressed on and off once I start to question things again. Or question myself as a person, my character etc. Who I am.

I have read on existential crisis, as well as quarter life crises etc. I feel I have commonality with both those problems. Talking of course does help.