Hi berries after having read your post I would like to consoul you that it is quite uncanny that I feel the same way.I lost my job as technician because of my OCD and that was over a decade ago,but i am still here one foot behind the other.Please dont despair,for everybody in this univerese serves a purpose. Just think of the butterfly effect. After all no matter how succesful one may be in this world, when were gone it only becomes a vague memory no material legacy remains forever. Hang in there