I am only here because I brought a child in this world. If I new he wouldn't be crying for me then it would be so much easier. He is why I wake up each day, and the only reason. I could care less about anything else.

Ditto on above. If I knew my son would be good without me then I wouldn't be needed.

I really get along with my therapist. He has always given me his time when I am in crisis mode. There are many other feeling about my T also. I know it's wrong to have the feelings that I do, but that is how I feel. I believe everyone will leave me at some point. Everyone else has in my life.

I post here because I have no one else to turn too. Lately, I feel I am just to much for everyone here too. So I'm not sure why I keep posting. I guess the right thing to do is just stop and then I won't be wasting anyone else's time.

And no I don't give a crap. My life is hell, always has been, I'm trying to fix it but yet I don't get any where. I'm ready to throw in the towel and be done with it.

Crap is worth nothing, that is why I say put it out with the trash and let it to rot in the landfill. No one cares any ways.