I'm so sorry to see you in so much pain.

You're hurting and it's so hard for you think clearly, but please don't isolate yourself. I'm glad you are posting and looking for support here. It may be hard to see now, but the best thing you can do is go to your pdoc appt and talk. Don't let go and stay to yourself...things just get more overwhelming.

Just know you're not alone. You're in my thoughts and I really hope you'll go to that appt.

*hugs*
Eva