I posted ---as my mother has since gotten the letter- and responded...poorly


I have been very reclusive the last few days as she has bombarded me with emails/texts/voicemails about how upset she is with me.

I am hanging in there because I know deep down my choice is a healthy one and is stemmed from taking charge and making changes instead of remaining upset- but she is doing everything she can to wear me down and I am so emotionally drained you guys...
its like...having someone just scratch and scratch until you bleed.
I don't want to cut off contact with her, but it always comes down to- its hard to make healthy choices, when it issn't supported and the other person isn't trying as well.
Since my mom refuses to try therapy, or even discuss things- my choices make no sense to her because she doesn't view anythign as wrong.
What happened, happened, its over and done with to her because my dad is dead- she doesn't seem to have the same....residual things going on with her.
But then again, WATCHING abuse, via being abused, isn't the same thing.
Her part - is over.

Sigh..
well anyhow, so I posted in the above thread..I just ...am really working on sticking to my decision because the last thing i want to do is be inconsistant after finally finding the strength to stand up for my own needs after so long.
And I tried to compromise I asked her if SHE wanted to come with me-
She flat out said no- so i did offer a middle ground- and she wanted no part of it.

I know logically I shouldn't feel bad.
I know logically its a good decision for a lot of reasons..

logically isn't making me feel less bad though.

i posted under phobias/panic and anxiety - as a follow up in whole- but wanted to follow up here too.
I really appreciate all the support, at least HERE i don't feel like im selfish about this choice