I am wondering if the disconnected feeling is a protection response to her blowing you off the previous 2 days. You know kinda a dissociation sort of thing to protect you from the intense feelings of loss that sometimes occur when someone is not able to be there when you want them too. I get these feelings all the time toward my husband when I feel like he has abandoned me even though he is just going out for the night with friends or going to a game. I know that it is perfectly all right for him to do these things, in fact I encourage him to do them but I still get that sense of loss. Does that make any sense?

I saw the movie right before I jumped off the perverbial cliff. I read the book after I was diagnosed. The book was much better. But isn't that usually the case? I enjoy finding all the changes they make in the movie and contemplate why it is that they felt they needed to stray from the story. Just one of my little amusements. I have been having Jolly fun with the whole Lord of the Rings trilogy.
Carrie

<font color=green>Not knowing when the dawn will come, I open every door.--Emily Dickenson