Sunny the fact that you feel like running away shouts to me that you are becoming overwhelmed. When you next see T maybe talk a little about just how to keep on an even keel, any deep or triggering stuff needs to go on the backburner for a little while. You are doing so well, the parents thing at the weekend - you coped with it by going for a walk before hand. Don't look at the whole picture just now, little chunks, babysteps, one thing at a time is what you need sweetie. The worst thing you can do now is to become overwhelmed with too much 'stuff'. Take care of YOU, be good to yourself which I know is hard for a survivor, but you will learn how to I promise. Do something you enjoy and make time for YOU. Love, Kerry xx