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thank goodness you have a therapist that understands that is a start...keep talking to your T about this and keep posting here and venting your feelings that helps too....I care about you and If I would meet you personally, I would sit and listen to you and give you lots of hugs.....my heart is breaking for you....I was unloved and not wanted or cared about my mom either so I know your pain.....it just brings tears to my eyes when someone like you is reaching out to your mom and she doesnt respond....just know your loved here and I am here anytime you need to talk
take care and wishing you all the best