Hi. things have been upsetting - now tonight there was a call on my cellphone, someone that i never heard of before called and asked for my alter. i don't have any idea who it is. i'm afraid that i might be in trouble because i don't give my cell number to anyone except family and drs, etc. Things like this used to happen about four years ago soon after i was dx with DID but not recently. It's so nerve wracking to not know what's going on.
To make things worse- therapy with my T is a disaster. The last sessions have left me a mess- almost in crisis. T has been so negativeeeeeeee, not being supportive or positive at all, just negative, always so unhappy that i can't communicate and journal. T even insinuated that i was doing things wrong- he said that was why i was so separated- that i was hiding things from myself . i shudder to think that T may be right.
. Please help- i'm worried that i could be in trouble. It's terrible not knowing for sure.
i was going to stop seeing T because he was upsetting me so much and try to find a different T. Now i don't think that it would be a good idea. i don't know- we need some kind of stability so much.

Thanks for listening- anyone have things like this happen? How do you get control? T always says "ask inside " but i don't hear anything.
i wish everything wasn't such a mess.
Take care,
kerria