<font color="#000088">Well this is it. Another day fades away for me. Trying to do my best, but I just can't win. Feeling pain! Why can't I findthe questions right in front of me? I've botttled up too much for so many days, weeks, months even years. It all could be worse, I say too myself? Like...I dunno. So negitive I wonder if the CBT would ever have been useful. I feel the need to be hospitalized today as I'm at the cutting edge. I wish we all could just snap out of it and get on with our lifes. But the thing is what if it comes back to stay and what if it is apart of me now. I don't even worry about myself anymore as it feels hopeless. I am worried about my friend though, she doesn't realise that she is suffering from depression too and I'm trying to listen to her. But she needs help before it's too late. Enough about me already, who am I kidding? It's just one or two or three of those days. Meh*