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Originally Posted by white_iris
DUHHHH--shows where my head is.....yes, inpatient.
feel very weak about doing this--like can't handle things like other ppl.
others struggle and get thru without having to go inpatient...and for the most part we have been able to.
Just being hit very hard and was already struggling with triggers and PTSD stuff...and it's too much.....
Catherine--I admire your strength--your inner strength to crawl and work thru and keep going. I'm down--immobile...nothing left....not even enough strenth to crawl into the closet......i guess right now I have given up the fight.....  |
wi,
Hear my heart saying this to you...you are not weak
and
remember we don't compare, whether it is our traumas or how we get back on the path of healing....different pace and different way is as it should be...this way it's not a cookie-cutter, one size fits all thing. So there is no shame or guilt allowed...
Re others struggling and not going inpatient? Good for them...but remember you are judging your insides by their outsides...not going inpatient may have extracted a very high price on them.
In no way do I have strength each and every day...it comes and goes, it may stay for some time or it may be fleeting.
I'm sure you have seen my posts in Combat PTSD, and know I'm having a rough time, too.
Crawling? You don't have to worry about it, my friend, I know how to drag someone along with me as I crawl...just watch out for the bumps we'll encounter and we'll be a great team.
Giving up? Posted this in the other thread;
"some people believe that holding on and hanging in there are signs of strength,
but there are times in life when it takes much more strength to just let go"
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Perhaps you've reached the point of letting go...you've fought a long, hard battle. The need for extra support is not a sign of weakness; it's being damn smart about doing the right thing.
Oh by the way? I already have your bat...
and I'm on your six, my friend.
Know that you are cared about by many of us, and we will crawl right along with you.
You are not alone.
Catherine