Hello Briester, hugs

I am glad you are able to write here your thoughts and feelings.

In your writing you have identified a few things.

Yes, you need to wait for the meds to kick in but they will at some point.

You miss your wife and child, maybe you can find some way of keeping in contact more?

You have identified that you are not happy with your job. Maybe you can think about what you really want to do. Keep your job but look around for something else. What do you need to do to change the job situation?

Of course your wife and child would not be better off without you.

Yes, it is easier to help others than it is to help ourselves. But in helping others we are actually helping ourselves. Gradually we are able to believe that we too deserve the same love and compassion.