(((((((((((Kaika)))))))))))

I'm sorry you are stuggling. I'm sorry you don't have a support system with your parents. Do they know you SI? Maybe if they did, they would realize the seriousness of your depression and help you get the help you need.
Please keep safe. If you are not safe, get a ride from you sister or best friend and go to the ER.

I am rooting for you.
Wishing you peace and understanding.