I have felt a lot of guilt about not wanting to work. My past experiences with working has been quite bad. I always got sick over and over. I would physical and mental breakdowns. It got worse with each job/opportunity I tried. On the outside, I look normal. I'm a wife "who doesn't want to work." I'm a wife "who doesn't do anything." This puts a huge guilt on me. I'm physically "able" to work, even though I'm blind in my left eye and profoundly deaf, and have been since birth. My husband thinks I"m avoiding work. But who wouldn't in my situation? Have I cheated? Am I a freeloader? Maybe. But what can I do? I suck at volunteering. I suck at marketing online. Can one feel lower than feeling like dirt because they can't hold down a job. I feel like I'm such a burden to society. Like I'm not productive to society. I know it's overrated, but I'm such an outcast in the society that expects so much out of a person.