Yeah...I am gonna cancel my pdoc appt on Thursday. I don't want to feel guilty about lying so I am saying it here.
I am not telling my gf though.
I am so lost. Like a child who got lost at the amusement park...you are in a fun place but not having fun because you don't know which direction to turn in or who walking by you that you can trust. And as you keep trying to make contact or find safety you just keep going round and round getting no where.
I am really not sure about anything anymore.
I don't know if I can keep holding on.....