Okay I know it's going to sound stupid but I think aliens are going to abduct me while I'm asleep. I was home the other day and the power flickered and I started crying because of it. Luckily my friend had just come over and I wasn't alone or I probably would have flipped out. While I'm laying in bed trying to sleep I'll have all the lights on in my room but it doesn't calm me down at all. My eyes will start to cross and droop and I think it's them trying to make me pass out so they can get me. When I finally do pass out I can only sleep for two to three hours at a time.
I ran out of xanax and those were the only pills I would take. Now I've been flipping out over a lot of stuff. I thought demons were trying to posses me before this. I don't know if it's because I'm not taking anything or if its just my disorder acting up. I don't know what to do to stay calm. I try to keep myself distracted with something, but every time something happens my thoughts automatically go to aliens and I freak out. When I'm home alone I can hardly leave my bedroom because I feel so vulnerable in any other part of the house.
I'm trying to find another doctor so I can get rediagnosed and maybe prescribed something again but it's freakin taking so long.
I'm so stressed I just want to throw myself into traffic.