Rayna…
I never fail to read your posts. People like you and Bama make my day.
Stay on the path you are on, and it just gets better and better. You’ll see.

As to the question of how bad your personal bottom was, it doesn’t really matter. I have heard people say that in their early sobriety, they would hear horror stories about living under bridges, and they seemingly had nothing to relate to. Almost without a doubt, there will be a woman in that speaker meeting thinking to her self that she isn’t that bad. Maybe she has made too big a deal out of this thing. She never held a cardboard sign on a street corner. She NEEDS to hear your story. She needs to know that she can get off the elevator where she is.

Rayna, we are all teachers all the time. Your story is supposed to be heard by someone you may never meet personally. Your job is to plant the seed of hope. Where and when it sprouts is the job of this power greater than ourselves.

On the road to the good stuff,
Richard