No, Hun, I'm not feeling bad at all. Maybe it was just where I was when I posted that web address. Maybe it's because I lost my passion for it that I didn't elaborate. I really didn't want to make a big splash with it, ya know?

Darrel, I'm going to answer your post with a PM I sent you earlier as we were discussing some frustration with this thread as well as where you, I and Wendy are on this. I haven't discussed it with Wendy yet, but here is an excerpt from our discussion earlier:

Who knows how many people are watching the thread. We don't know and we don't need to know. It's my experience that long after something has been posted; one or two will write me and thank me. Maybe it was one phrase or a paragraph that triggered something for them. I figure if I reach only one person, then I've helped in a small way. Writing my book is a "grandiose" idea. I know it's not going to be a best seller, IF it even gets published! My main intent is to leave a legacy for my kids. Maybe after I'm dead they'll think "Oh, yeah! Mom wrote about this! Now I understand!" Notice I started that sentence with a "maybe. ... I honestly feel that you are wanting to control something that you can't control. Some people, like you said, don't want to be saved. (I got dinged for putting that word in a poem once. I'm not a "saviour.") There's nothing we can do about it. Remember the saying I mentioned? 'You can lead a horse to water... but you can't make him drink.' "

We can keep our work public on this board and let others watch. They don't have to get involved publicly if they don't feel comfortable with it. Many are just being diagnosed with a mental illness and are just beginning to feel their way around in the dark. This is pretty heavy stuff!

Please let me encourage you to put the focus on yourself. You have to help yourself first before you can help anyone else. Shrink your boundaries down to yourself and please don't worry about the rest of the world for now. This is not to say that you don't have some very valid points in your post above. You're very right, if we're not part of the solution, then we're part of the problem... but let's get rid of some of our own personal problems first, ok?

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