woooooooooooo sw........................ I know it's not good to criticize another's T, and especially in this area when this one is "an ED specialst" and I am certainly not, but it seems the KIND thing for yr T to do would have been to postpone the experiment to another date, and next time, not forget and make you eat alone.

I know that if I go to a restaurant at lunchtime alone, I can scarcely get a fork to my mouth, and that's even with a book to hide behind. I can't shake the feeling that I am being watched and my hands tremble. And you had the certainty that you were being watched; to me this is incredibly hard, what she asked of you,

I have another word for it but I won't use it.

I'm sorry but that's how I see it. Maybe when you are more calm you could tell her that a deal is a deal..... ? here's a sweet hug for you.