SW28....here is a whole lot of hugs and hugs and hugs for you

What described sounds so incredibly painful. I do believe that if someone says they are a ED specialist it doesnt mean they know what they are doing. I think the idea of a meal with your t is a great idea. I think a lot can come up, but it HAS to be under very safe circumstances and circumstances that allow feelings to come up. I have done that many times, had an eating session and A LOT comes up. It is REALLY difficult.

If she said she was going to eat with you, then she should have and I would imagine you felt just as you descrebed, abandoned. When I did that it was in a group of a couple of people, not alone. It felt safer that way. Food has so many deep meaniings to us. Even drinking a cup of tea brings up feelings for me. I have brought that up in therapy. Could you start small with a cup of something and see what comes up? Bring in a apple? Not a whole lunch kind of thing. That would freak me out, too.

More big hugs, SW, and love to your sweet, gentle soul.