ive taken the liberty of checking out your link E-nigh-matic%and%BasTARDed.php

and may i suggest you take better caution of the sensory input and congregation you are surrounding yourself with?

as said in your 'new member post' Lo, ev'ryone. Suicidal and Depressed

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=118689

... find IRL help and health support NOW, not later, then come and tell us how you are feeling

best to you always