I'm sorry to hear what you're going through. I was also home-schooled my entire life. I didn't feel like I was getting anywhere. I attempted to go for the GED but I was terrified that I would fail, have to wait 6 months and attempt it again...not to mention humiliate myself. I was not motivated to keep up with the studying. I knew I needed to do it, but I just couldn't. My sister use Penn Foster, and she got her high school diploma, so I gave it a shot. You have 2 years to finish, and you can pay a little extra for an extended period of time. If you do payment plans, its $39 a month. You have to keep paying it off, or else they can drop you and continue cashing in on the payments. That motivated me. I'd hate to lose out on all that money!! I finished and got my diploma in a little less than a year. You should check it out, it's pretty easy and it doesn't take long. Then if you want to you can go on to college, or whatever you want to do with your life. http://pennfoster.edu
Good luck! You can do it