at the moment, I am quite obsessed with all the games in the forum.

one of the questions were
" is there relationship that you'd like to mend?" from Dr. John

Last night, I had a dream.

I was visiting my dad's. It was just one room. very small.
I think I feel that he doesn't have any room to support me emotionally.
cuz he needs more help than I do.

anyways, I had to arrange all the clothes there. the place was disaster
Mainly my mom's and dad's clothes and I took a lot of my clothes too.
I guess I really want to be noticed...

I was moving my parents stuff so I can hang my clothes.
It was very difficult because the room was so small

Then I borrowed my dad's SUV. It was sort of new.
While I was driving, I was feeling something really bumpy and all that stuff.

I got out of the car and I noticed huge air bag under the car.
and all the tires were flat
2 front tires were half burned or cutten...

I was like OMG
My parents are going to be so mad at me and I am so scared.
I don't have money for this. No... I think my dad will understand me
he won't make me pay for it.

That dream felt super real. when I woke up in the morning.
I was still worried and so anxoius...I felt bad...
that I even visited my parent's place again and I felt so stupid that I drove my dad's car.....

It's close to my bed time and I am still feeling very yucky...

I really didn't like that dream at all...

I think I am telling myself, there is no way to fix problems between me and my parents. somehow I am scared of my dad right now. I got angry at my mom and that really pisses off him even though he makes a lot more troubles for her.

I have wrecked my dad's car once. he didn't noticed it.

anyways... I am still feeling bad....but Not guilty
I just feel bad that I had dreams like that...