Hello,
I am new to this site. I have many disorders including Acute Intermittent Porphyria. It causes many physical and emotional symptoms. I have severe depression when an attack is going on.
I also have a heart condition and diabetic. I am 50 years old. I am very depressed and think of death a lot to the point of acting on it. I am depressed because I lost my husband in 2004 when he died at work. It was his heart but it was very sudden. What do you do when depression gets its worse? I try to find something to do but everything seems pointless. I don't have life so bad anymore-I just got out of an abusive relationship in which he abused me mentally and physically. I have my own place now and life seems to be getting better- so why can't I get over this depression. I am on medication which I take morning and night. I am too embarrassed to tell anyone. When my family doctor asks how I am doing on my meds for depression-I say I am doing fine. I tried therapy and even the hospital a few times. I am trying to fight this depression on my own-by reading and trying to deal with it. I can't seem to win. I am to the point I really don't know where to turn now. Why can't I get over this by my self? Life and Depression!