Dane,
I just wanted to let you know that you aren't alone when it comes to the way you are feeling right now. I am in the exact same position you are in. So, I understand how frustrating it can be. I also have bipolar (type 2). I have feelings of despair and hopelessness also. And my meds have been changed so many times that it's not even funny. I have just been switched to Geodon and Cogentin, and both of these medicines make me feel awful. I was SO manic the other night that I thought I was gonna have to go to the hospital. It was the first night that I took the Geodon. My mind kept thinking that I would die if I went to sleep. And then I decided to cut myself just so I'd stay awake. I was running all over the house just to be moving. I felt like I had to move constantly. Anyway, no one in my family really understands much about what I am going through. And some of them are so sick of me that they don't even care. So, I feel like I am going through all these things alone... and that makes things extremely hard. I feel like I am alone with no one to talk to and no one to understand me. I hope you feel better soon.