what you wrote is how I described my life.....but since coming out of the hospital last time I know try my best to keep myself busy....it is easy for me right now... I swim in our pool and work in my flower beds.....but the urge has been so STRONG today....and when I thought about what was giving me the urge I cried....and then I ate and ate and ate.....
your NOT alone....I as well as others here at PC know about addictions and how they can control your life...
keep talking to us and venting get those feelings out...