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Oct 29, 2009, 08:32 AM
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Member Since: Sep 2007
Location: Colorado
Posts: 9,092
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the only thing is that I know I've definitely WANTED very badly to get up out of bed. Lately it hasn't been as much of a problem *this morning I messed up, but overall it's been better*.
It's hard to describe because I was ANGRY at myself, I was telling myself the same things. "Why the **** didn't you get out of bed this morning sea?" I would miss class and would sit shaking in bed uncontrollably. Sometimes I was so upset that I couldn't get up I would have panic attacks.
It really gets me down when people say "just get up, it's not that hard" or the like, I understand where its coming from. And right now, for me I can say that. I'm not as depressed as I was last year. But last year it was not possible. I think it truly depends on the level and symptoms of your depression. Some people never get some physical symptoms others get. I know it would PHYSICALLY HURT TO MOVE. My muscles ACHED, so it physically hurt when I woudl TRY to get up. And yes at some points I would think
**********possible ***************
why does it matter I don't even have to be here tomorrow
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I know you're trying to be supportive but please realize that for some people it's just not possible. They need further therapy, medications, etc BEFORE they can get to the point where willpower will make waking up possible.
Hugs to everyone on this board, those who CAN and those who CAN'T wake up in the morning. *passes coffee around*
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Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
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