This is why, even though I sound like a broken record (those things we listened to music from before there were CDs and MP3 players/files for you yougins!), but see a doctor or a mental health professional who have the diagnostic tools to help you figure out and then treat whatever the issue is.

The reason I am so passionate about this is that due to the lack of information at the time, I was told I was NOT ADD/ADHD when I was 10. (WAAAAY back in 1985 folks!) Back then they still thought it was only something that affected kids and didn't know there was an "Inattentive type" (the "H" for me was HYPOactivity, not HYPER). They didn't start treating adults until the late 90s! So for 24 years I lived thinking there was something fundamentally broken in my head or I had uncontrolled/unfixable character flaws. Needless to say I have had many self esteem issues as a result. Even though medication does not "cure" me, I at least know now what I need to work on to get better.

Hang in there! Many of us totally relate and support you!