Welcome todarktosleep. Thanks for what you did for us and our country. I found the best way to deal with the past is to face it and try to get the control back. You have to let out as much as you can what you have stored inside. I have been working at it for may years. Thanks again.
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Originally Posted by todarktosleep
Here I am awake again, not because I need to be I assure you, but I cannot figure out how not to fear the past…
Ultimately that’s what this is. I have no reason to fear the present. My wife loves me, my kids love me, in their own way. I have a home, a car, my bills are paid, I still FEAR… I still feel physically sick when I think about what I did Over There.
Everyone tells me :”you only did what you had to do, were told to do” but as much as I agree with them it doesn’t change how I feel. I completely understand the mechanics of PTSD yet I don’t understand it at all...
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