Hi I am new here. I am a 38 year old male who got into another ocd rutt a few days ago. I started obsessing about being 40 in a few years and having to deal with htis ocd all my life. I just feel like time is running out and I will always have to deal with htis crap. I also have mild tourettes syndrome and ADHD(lucky, I guess). I just fel so alone and scared and I wish I could cry. Just a week ago I was feeling decent and motivated. I always go through these rutts once a year for a month or 2 and then it seems like my brain just gets tired of obsessing and says so what. Then I get well again. But even being well doesn't mean i am cured just able to be somewhat happy and comfortable. I just feel like this whole disease has just limited a what ciould still be fabulous life. But right now nothing interests me except thinking about having ocd and always being in this dark, lonely place.. Anyway thanks for listening and I look forward to talking one here..... We will all be ok, I just know it