I am going through the same thing right now. And it seems like it is so hard to get a hold of because this is one problem that will always be there. So far I get into a rutt about this for months at a time and then it dissappears. Doesn't dissappear but goes away because I just get tired of it and not as scared of it. This will happen to you too. I obsess about this and being 39 years old. I sed to think hang on till there is a cure. But i doubt that now. I feel like time is running out and I am scared to death right now