((((Zen)))
I can tell by your posts you are a thoughtful, kind, special person!! you are SO WORTHY!!
I, too, recently got accepted into a master's program for becoming a teacher for Christ's sake, and deep down I am TERRIFIED- I too question what was this university thinking little ole me with all my mental health problems etc etc..
I too have dropped out of programs..
..But I am doing GREAT!!!! I am going part time, so proud of my decision to do so, the pace is working out great.
Zen the more you slowly develop into realizing just how worthy you truly are, and it will take time

this is just the beginning of a new leaf for you..........and you are soooo very worthy, you matter to me and everyone at PC and I am sure you have touched children's lives as well..
as for the legal matter trust the experts and know you have nothing to worry about
Your future is just beginning, one day at a time, one measure of self love and worthiness at a time, for me and for you