(((((LadyCathy)))))
I really feel for you, I was where you are not too long ago, a very deep depression, it took time to heal. I did what my terrific T told me, I rested and tried to change a few things about myself or at least my outlook on things, I also accepted I was sick and needed to take care of myself. I also had to change my meds, the other AD had not been working for quite a while according to my psychiatrist and that is why I got in so deep. Since being on the new meds, my mood has improved greatly. I also came to this forum a lot and it helped quite a bit.
Welcome to this site, keep on posting, you will find a lot of caring and understanding people.